Wedding to-do's

I'm so excited for my mom's wedding! She's getting married March 19th, and I'm reminded of this because of all the planning that's been going on this week. She and my grandma are going shopping on Saturday for our outfits, and my mom has been getting all the meal plans finalized. My room has been switched to make room for Jason and his kids to move in. It's all coming together so nicely, and I can't wait!! I think my mom deserves to be happy as much as anyone, and the men she's chosen in the past haven't been good for her. She's finally found a good man that will treat her right and I seriously believe that they will share the rest of their lives together. I'm also excited for this change for my sister Emily's sake. Her biological father hasn't been around to see her grow up. He is only around when its convenient for him. It's sad, but true. However, after mom and Jason get married, that's all going to change because when we can afford it, Jason is going to adopt Emily!! She's so excited and I am thrilled for her! I'm glad she has something that she can be so excited about, and I'm glad that she's going to finally have someone in her life to call "dad". She needs the peace of mind and the structure that comes from having a dad. Most growing girls, when asked who they most want to please, would probably say their dad. I know I was that way for a long time, and probably still am if I'm being honest with myself.

More another time. This was just a quick update. Just wanted to share my happiness with whoever might be reading this!!

-Kylee

Round 654

I'm a ball of nerves today. My ex-boyfriend called me three times this last weekend, once Saturday night and twice on Sunday. I ignored his calls as I have been doing, but after the second time he called me on Sunday, I texted my stepmother to tell her. My dad and stepmom pay my phone bill, so I let them know about this kind of thing. I asked her not to tell my dad, because I don't want him freaking out about it. My stepmom said that she was going to go over to his parents' house today and tell them that either he stops calling me or they pay to have my phone number changed so he can't call me. He wants to get back together. I don't. I've gone out with him twice, and it didn't work out. I was with him for most of my freshman year of high school. We're just two different people. The fact that he has autism doesn't help matters any, but I'm not blaming that on all of our problems. I need someone I can talk to about things. Him I had to hide things from. I couldn't say anything that might upset him in the least, because his parents didn't want him to be upset. I need someone I can be honest with. I also need someone who doesn't remind me every three seconds that I'm fat. Now I know the two things I've mentioned all have to do with his autism. I understand that. But he needs someone who is better able to handle his situation. Someone with the kind of patience that I obviously don't have. I've moved on. I don't really want to be alone, but I don't want to be unhappy, either. I think I've chosen the lesser of the two evils. So, hopefully, my stepmother going over there today will offer some kind of solution to this ongoing problem. And when I say ongoing, I mean ongoing. I broke up with him in July, and it's January and he's still calling me. I've asked him to stop. Originally, I thought we could "just be friends" but the attempts I've made at that end up blowing up in my face. Everytime, he starts begging me to be with him again, and I don't want to do it. So, I've given up. I just want him to leave me alone.

More later. I'm waiting not-so-patiently for my stepmother to call and tell me how everything went.

~Kylee~

Miscellaneous Madness

This week has been so incredibly hectic, this is the first time I've been able to get to a computer!! I had an essay to write for my AP class, basketball games to tape, work to be done, etc etc etc. Sometime in the near future I need to get my room cleaned so that I can get my stuff ready to move into my new room. I'm changing rooms when my mom gets married because her fiance is moving in with us and we'll be fitting him and his two kids into our house. So, it absolutely has to be done by March 19th! Hopefully, I won't do what I always do and wait til the absolute last minute to do it. :) The fasting has been going well. I decided just to give up soda because the two things I was cutting out were big parts of my life, and I figured for my first fast, I would just focus on the one thing. It hasn't been hard this far, but I can't help thinking that I'm kind of missing the point. I mean I know the point of fasting isn't just to give something up. I know it's a lot more than that. I know what the purpose of it is, but I still kind of feel like I'm just going through the motions. Maybe that'll be something to pray about this week. I'm sure God can help me figure it out.

Another huge thing that's happened this week is that they're making us dissect a fetal pig in biology. I dissected for two days and then asked my biology teacher if I could have the alternate assignment for the people that don't want to dissect. She sounded disappointed but she understands. So the next time my class dissects, I'll be in study center doing whatever else she has for me! Our little pig's tongue was sort of hanging out of it's mouth. It was so sad!! I almost cried right there in the classroom! And they smell HORRIBLE! So that's that. No more piggy slicing for me!

More another time... soon, I hope


Kylee

The Same Resolution

This is about the hundredth time (okay, maybe not quite the hundredth) that I've made it a New Years resolution to blog. I know a lot of really neat people who have blogs, and update them faithfully. Never before have I been able to start one and keep up with it. That is one of my many goals for 2010. I want a place to share my thoughts. With who, I'm not really sure yet. Hopefully, someone will find my little place in cyberspace, read what I have written, and maybe even benefit a little from it. I'm not looking to change the world or anything, but if something I put up on here happens to help someone, then the time I spend keeping it up will definitely be worth it. And if no one reads it, then I guess it just becomes a good way to vent. Either way, it's win-win.
Today starts my three week fast. My church is doing a corporate fast, to begin the new year. It was in the bulletin, and when I read a little about it, I decided it was something I wanted to do. I don't have to quit eating completely for 3 weeks (which is what a lot of people, including myself before I learned otherwise, think fasting is). For my fast, I am cutting out soda and sweets. I have three things I hope to gain from this; three spiritual goals. I'm not hoping that these goals will be completed by the end of the three weeks, but I am hoping that God will give me the guidance to begin accomplishing those goals.

Wish me luck in my blogging and my fasting. I'll post again the next time I have access to a computer. I don't have internet at home right now, so I'm not sure how frequent my posts will be, but my goal is 1 entry per week. That seems like a reasonable place to start.