Round 654

I'm a ball of nerves today. My ex-boyfriend called me three times this last weekend, once Saturday night and twice on Sunday. I ignored his calls as I have been doing, but after the second time he called me on Sunday, I texted my stepmother to tell her. My dad and stepmom pay my phone bill, so I let them know about this kind of thing. I asked her not to tell my dad, because I don't want him freaking out about it. My stepmom said that she was going to go over to his parents' house today and tell them that either he stops calling me or they pay to have my phone number changed so he can't call me. He wants to get back together. I don't. I've gone out with him twice, and it didn't work out. I was with him for most of my freshman year of high school. We're just two different people. The fact that he has autism doesn't help matters any, but I'm not blaming that on all of our problems. I need someone I can talk to about things. Him I had to hide things from. I couldn't say anything that might upset him in the least, because his parents didn't want him to be upset. I need someone I can be honest with. I also need someone who doesn't remind me every three seconds that I'm fat. Now I know the two things I've mentioned all have to do with his autism. I understand that. But he needs someone who is better able to handle his situation. Someone with the kind of patience that I obviously don't have. I've moved on. I don't really want to be alone, but I don't want to be unhappy, either. I think I've chosen the lesser of the two evils. So, hopefully, my stepmother going over there today will offer some kind of solution to this ongoing problem. And when I say ongoing, I mean ongoing. I broke up with him in July, and it's January and he's still calling me. I've asked him to stop. Originally, I thought we could "just be friends" but the attempts I've made at that end up blowing up in my face. Everytime, he starts begging me to be with him again, and I don't want to do it. So, I've given up. I just want him to leave me alone.

More later. I'm waiting not-so-patiently for my stepmother to call and tell me how everything went.

~Kylee~